Why is that?

in this awful cold winter night
i see kids, their smile is bright
and this white paradise of snow
is shining.. shining like a rainbow
the wind blows carols at your door,
and all your worries are no more
it's something magic, like a dream
it’s in your hearts just like a gleam
it's snowing, it's snowing all around
the world is white and fill with fun

but not me, is not my season
for me is just another reason
to seat back and count my dreams
to make plans for the next spring
I see winter, like a soldier…
A cruel one, with no composure
Who destroyed my truly loved ones
The green nature,and animals … tones

But it also charms me in some way
It takes everything, it has no mercy
It’s cold and dead but you still love it
So I stop and wonder.. why is that? Why is that?..