Looking at my life’s emptiness
I try in vain
To find the missing part of what remains
But the search is not helping
Saving me as I wanted it to
It’s pulling me down
Giving me hope for what I’ll never do
Breathing is a hard action
And moving is what keeps me alive
But moving won’t let me survive long
If the air does not come inside
Soon I’ll lose myself if I’m not already lost
But now I still can look at the light
That’s slowly fading away
As my breath’s gone
Beyond the light I’ve never been
Never searched there where I can go in
Maybe there’s what’s lost
Of my aching being
So I’ll keep walking if my life’s with me
I would ask for help on this journey of mine
But there’s no one to ask for it
I carry on with asphyxiating moves
When I get there I’ll be dead
At least I’ll search where I’ve never searched
And hopefully find what will give me peace
Or fill the hollow side of me
And then I’ll be
What I’ve always wanted everyone else to be
Dead but happy