you said you'd never look back
and you never did

our last day together
you took my hand and let me enter your secret place

at the beginning there was dark and fear

then I met this little boy
standing in front of a wall
with a threatening look in his eyes

unexpectedly
he stepped away allowing me to see over the wall an amazing red tulips garden
and on that particular second between two beatings of the hart
I heard the little boy whispering
here I am
guarding day from night
crossing endless borders of lives
growing red tulips from each hart that pounded for me

***

you said you'd never look back
and you never did

but I do feel a red tulip growing through my chest
running from night
searching for light
waiting for you
and I really hate this helpless feeling of envy
for the way you keep building your immortality