Looking at my life’s emptiness

I try in vain

To find the missing part of what remains

But the search is not helping

Saving me as I wanted it to

It’s pulling me down

Giving me hope for what I’ll never do

Breathing is a hard action

And moving is what keeps me alive

But moving won’t let me survive long

If the air does not come inside

Soon I’ll lose myself if I’m not already lost

But now I still can look at the light

That’s slowly fading away

As my breath’s gone

Beyond the light I’ve never been

Never searched there where I can go in

Maybe there’s what’s lost

Of my aching being

So I’ll keep walking if my life’s with me

I would ask for help on this journey of mine

But there’s no one to ask for it

I carry on with asphyxiating moves

When I get there I’ll be dead

At least I’ll search where I’ve never searched

And hopefully find what will give me peace

Or fill the hollow side of me

And then I’ll be

What I’ve always wanted everyone else to be

Dead but happy